Foolish Behaviour

Don’t let your spirit rush to be angry, for anger abides in the heart of fools.
Ecclesiastes 7:9 HCSB

Verse 8 says:
The end of a matter is better than its beginning; a patient spirit is better than a proud spirit.
Ecclesiastes 7:8 HCSB

I could say yes to this verse, as to the one above. Yesterday I awoke to crushing stress and fear. I went for my walk and praised the Lord. As i prepare to go to Nepal next week, the forests are ablaze, the heat is intense and great grinding machines are chasing me (i should write a novel methinks)

I had staff coming and mother wanting to go visit a relative and I received a message from one who was causing me grief: 'can we meet?' I made a time and proceeded with the mountain of work before me. The young man who had worked for me and was leaving came with a gift, an unexpected gift. I was delighted. What a blessing! I received a fountain pen, a special pen. It was my parting gift. A thank you for believing in me gift. This same young man and I had had angry words some few weeks before. We had mended the relationship and continued on the path of separation.

Back to work and the fire. I had to make a call about a compliance matter. My industry has become so complex and ridiculous that we have to write plans about any little change to a client's portfolio, and of course not charge like wounded Bulls. I was being told such was the case at hand. My response was not very gracious. You might say I am feeling rather foolish.

When I resort to fleshly behaviour I lose. The sad thing also is others lose an opportunity to see grace. I have robbed someone of seeing Christ. That very moment could have been important for her and I failed. Yes I can repent and move on. Perhaps call back and hope to speak to the same woman without a name.

Now, also, I must go through the fire again until the master sees His face in my response. Amen!