Today we have more people who are 'done' with church. Apparently these are they would have given their best and burnt out. What causes this? Disillusionment? Wrong believing?
The inner group in any church are in everything, they are the first to put their hands up, the first to give. Yet are they being wise? I have been such a person and had to extricate myself for a while as I processed the grief of divorce, yet the giver in me constantly wanted in. Had I kept going I would not have survived as the stress of starting a business by myself and coping with grief that was crushing, only this past year did I have the freedom to again become involved.
As I analyse my own self I know It felt good to be in boots and all. Was I co-dependant? Or did I need to sort out my own life and then serve out of wholeness? Yes! But in the midst of all my processing I was still a giver, church attender, one who cared for others and reached out. To not go to church was very much in my face as I had been a pastor, now I was a pew warmer. My passion for the word, for souls, for the Kingdom had not abated but I was now emotionally a cripple in recovery.
When we give our all we expect the church and God to return the favour. It does not happen. There are paths we must walk that are painful at times and no amount of talk to the contrary will change it. It is a period of fire. The fire walk is a lonely walk, no one can rescue you, you have to accept, this is my path and walk and press into God. My God must be my sustenance, not people. Yes it is nice if they show care but they cannot rescue you.
Burn out is a type of fire. All we have done is now tested. What was it built upon? Rock or sand? How I handle the fire gives me the result. Perhaps I need a new perspective, regroup and go again, this time in wisdom. Amen!
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